hah

The next show is just around the corner. It’s nice because we’re actually ahead of schedule this time around compared to the last time when it seemed almost dire that we didn’t have a show prepared.

The venue is a little fancier than usual as well with a lot of space. So I’m looking forward to any turn out we may have. Advertising all over the place, rubbing elbows with other acts and shows who have their audience. Then everything huddles together and becomes a big family in a way.

I just like the idea of shows working with other shows to make their shows more engaging to whatever audiences there may be.

All of it is an amazing success in itself, one of those things I’ve always wanted. and something I wish you saw for yourself, because I know you’d agree.

I’ve been going to other shows myself with my free time. Like one last night that was all book based and it was really amazing, I’ve never laughed as hard as I did in such a long time, and it’s funny because I feel like it’s one of those things that we talked about once, or would have talked about absolutely to see or do.

(sigh) I miss you all the time. you may get tired of reading it, but you know Bron, you have to see it. I really care about you, no matter where you are… and honestly, I see that being the same for you. You’ll still come here, you’ll still read this. because you care about me just as much.

I’m always going to be honest with you, I hate beating around the bush. But I said that I’d wait for you, so I’m waiting for you. I’m not going to have eyes for any other woman, and it being 3 years already is telling.

I miss you, I love you, and I don’t care how long it takes to be able to say that to your face again. We are just worth it to each other. and I know I’m a bigger part of who you are, then he will ever be.

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funny how it’s been this long, and I still continue to wait for you.

I mean. it should bum me out, but I really don’t mind. Sure I have a hard time coping at odd intervals and I’m probably emotionally autistic. But, that’s what I want. I really do care about you in every way.

and still I just got to wait it out.

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sleepless

I managed to get in one hour of sleep today, which is amazing when it’s followed by 6 hours of a broadcasting class.

wheelWhen it was done, I went home to eat, and went to the Surrey Central Station afterwards for fun. There was a tree lighting ceremony. Loads of people all over the place and a stageforall the fun. I took a picture of the ferris wheel for some reason, because why not? haha..

I didn’t really get to stay too long, but I was entrance for some reason that a fellow that looked an awful lot like Michael Bublé, save for his baby-ish face, singing a variety of Bublé’s songs.

it was pretty entertaining.

Soon afterward, it was time to go back to work.

I hope I actually get some sleep tonight though, the week ahead will be a busy one.

congrats

I caught wind of this on the way home reading up on it on the CBC website from my feed. Congratulations on Journey with no maps winning a GGLA.

Seriously, that is amazing.

Let’s just put my nonsensical frustration to the side, because come on. I know, near the end of the book you were getting frustrated and your enthusiasm to do it was dwindling. But Bron, that’s an amazing acknowledgement. 

You helped make that book happen. That’s something worth being excited about. I don’t know if my encouragement meant very little to you during that time, but I’m just as excited for you now, as I was back then. When we first met, and you were telling me about this stuff I was hooked, I love you for it. It’s one of the many things yes, but it’s such a cool thing.

I’m smiling because that’s great! I don’t know, I can’t help but be excited for you. I remember going to the panel at writer’s fest last year because I wanted to hear about all the work that you helped put together. It was cool, fun, insightful.

The whole thing is cool. I don’t care if you hate what I say or not, but hun, You’re amazing. I can only hope that this inspires you. and if it does, there’s no way you can ever tell me that we don’t want the same things out of life.

Go and write something, have a glass of wine to celebrate. Be ridiculously happy. 

Just be grumpy about whatever else there is later.

I love what you do, and what you’ve done, and I don’t see why anyone shouldn’t. I’m in awe, and you’re great.

comic

Some comic thing I wrote.

Here is also a smart people blog to do smart people things with it, in an obvious smart way. #forthegoodofjournalism?

if you come to this at 1:23 am it’s honestly time for you to figure something out.

It’s bad enough that I sit and wait and care about you, but this stuff really fucks with me.

what are you doing? That kid doesn’t even respect you lady, it’s shitty that I can see that nonsense happening, and you sit there stubborn or in denial. Just what the hell are you doing?
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Origin story #bookillneverwrite

When Gaiman came to town for his book tour not too long ago, it was relatively exciting. A writer that I was always fond of thanks to the Sandman series. Unforttunately, I jumped the gun on this job that I’ve been trying to get, going to it a day early, and missing the meet entirely. But the roommate went and got a signed copy of the book, so in a sense it’s just as awesome.

Hearing him on Q, and the story behind the book is pretty inspiring. I started writing The book I’ll never write because Bron is such a heavy inspiration behind it. She makes me feel great about my talents, and if I write for myself, and her then I’d be more than happy to know that’s all I need.

Even now she’ll always just be an inspiration. So I’m going to keep writing, even if the stuff that shouldn’t get to me does. This is a book I want her to read. I mean hell, I even wrote a chapter just for her.

But, as I get a lot of the big important chapters out of the way. I’ll soon gear up on the next draft of everything. elaborate on the things I know are missing.

It’s a fun process…

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