there’s a lot of things that are always in the back of my head. When I was in vegas, you spent all that time reading the blog. I don’t know what you were trying to get out of it. It’s especially weird to me if you caught that drunk blog from that one night, that I basically deleted the morning after. I’m just not sure about that one, but the fact that the blog was read so religiously after that made me think.
It still makes me think. There’s a part of me that’s just wondering if you’re waiting for me to do something. you know I can’t do that. I have to wait for you to do something. That’s what I’ve been told by everyone. That’s what I have to put up with. So I look forward to doing the show on the 30th, because I want to look forward to you showing up.
(You need a reason to really be happy, I’m going to try for the rest of my life to find it.)
But then again, maybe not. Joe would probably be looking forward to embarrassing you again.
I do wait for you, I do miss you so much, that it wretches my heart in the dumbest way. I want to hear you tell stories. I want us to adventure and be creative the way we do.
You’re my one, I feel like myself when I’m around you. There’s a hole there because you’re gone. These journo and broadcasting classes are an interesting lot. I showed my teacher idealoclast and it went up onto the projector for the whole class to see.
It was actually an interesting conversation that lead to it.
I wish I could have an evening where I could listen to you talk about your current things. Ever since the PK Page book won the award, I just have this interest in hearing how you felt about it.
Let’s talk news, let’s talk you, interests, what you want, what bothers you, stuff! spend time doing something that I know you want to do.
I miss you hun. All the time. Don’t mistaken my kindness for weakness and crazy. I love you in all the best ways. Because I believe in you.
I miss your stories, your smile, your aspiration.
I always have that feeling that you’re not happy, and you’re not really doing what you want to do with yourself. I also know it’s not for me to decide. But I have that feeling for a reason Bron, I don’t know if you’re just stubborn, or choosing to be ignorant. But I know we still really care about each other, more than Joe ever does for you.
A long time ago, you used to do something that you really enjoyed, but I don’t want to know if you’re giving up on it. Sure, go back to working at an ABC country, and do what you gotta do. But never give up on the things that you want.
If anything, my encouragement keeps you going. I feel that. Because I’ve met joe, and it’s certainly not coming from him.
Don’t be afraid to speak up. I’m here for you always. I told you I’d wait, and that’s exactly what I’m doing, Don’t walk all over that.
Just remember hun, I’m the one that loves you for who you are, and what you want out of life. You can insult me, call me delusional and any other nonsense. It doesn’t stop the fact that I love you, and I’ve still been supporting you after all this time.
Because the feeling that I have in my gut, is the path in life that is definitely worth taking.