you know, I see things like tonight, and I really wonder about why he just does shit. I mean all my suspicions feel more right, every time it happens.
I’ve had to spend all this time writing out an entire episode for the next speakeasy. I guess it always seems to happen that I want to go the extra mile with the stuff that I want to truly do. But given the writing and research nature of the show, it gets pretty exhausting when you do it on your own.
But I’d rather get it done to the best of my ability to pitch it to the rest of the production. I mean I really like the idea for the episode, so I’ve had to take a lot of time out of my freedom to make it work.
Everything else is just writing here and there when I can. Obviously, when I have the time of day too. I would be nice to dedicate a full 24hours to the cause. I guess that’s why I have all those things in place, so I can say “hey, look. If I can dedicate my life to doing the shit that I love, then I’m going to pursue it.” It’s been really interesting to exploring options with many different people and seeing where they go. I suppose it’s the enjoyment of really sinking teeth into productions and shtuff.
augh, the things I constantly want to share with you. all the time. I wish you would open up hun. Life keeps giving you these chances to. we need a day. A DAY.
I’ve lost a little bit of steam since the last show, (because I got sick) but thankfully it’s picking back up again. business is business as usual. I get exhausted because suddenly, everyday I have so many things that I need to be doing at all times. But whatever right? work is work.
Bron, if I’m being a thorn, you know why. When I told you years ago, that I’m never giving up on you, you know that I meant it. I’m never going to stop because I know how important you are, I know what you value in life. If I keep telling you, that you are the most beautiful person I’ve ever had in my life, then the only person that is ever going to be that is you. Since I’ve met you, I’ve only had eyes for you, no matter how many times you’ve accused me of otherwise. Hell, I’ve cared a great deal about your family too. I think I’ve done more things for your mom than your brothers have. hahaha.
I mean, it doesn’t really matter whatever problems there is, because I will always go out of my way for you. I wish you would see that, you know? joe doesn’t care about what you want to do with your life. He doesn’t care about all the quirks that make you special and unique, and amazing. You’ve been seeing shit in the wrong light for a long time. I don’t know if you force yourself to, or others make you do that but LOOK, it’s obviously making you miserable.
So I keep working hard, everyday. Because I want my life back. I have the drive to keep moving forward, because I need that drive that keeps moving me forward. That drive is you hun. Everything about you, is everything about me.
It comes from such a genuine place that isn’t a series of tricks to get you to love me. It always was, and that’s what you loved about me in the first place. It’s real. You won’t get that from him.
We’ve always wanted the same things in life.
I’m going to repeat that. We’ve always wanted the same things in life.
We always will. There’s nothing that joe can do that really keeps us away from each other, you know why that is? Because we are important to each other. We always were. Take a look at what you want to do with your life, and you’ll feel it in your heart that, that’s where I am.
I’m always here for you, I’ve kept my promises, I’ll always be dedicated. No matter whatever hard, or crazy shit that happens in your life. I’m always going to be here for you. You matter to me that much.
It’s up to you to start seeing things for what they are, but you really need to make the effort. I know how unhappy you are, you know how unhappy you are. I’m sure other people can see it too.
It frustrates me. It gets me riled up sometimes… but passion will do that.