Emotional Grab Baggage

Look, I know it sounds like a really cool Idea, but Minecraft Lego is really just Lego. Honestly, who the fuck are you fooling? What’s baffling is the support it’s getting. What are you going to expect when you buy it? The minecraft Experience? People who play Minecraft in the first place like the Lego-like aspect in the first place. I mean, I sure as hell do. Every time I turn Minecraft on all I do is build. So what about playing with actual lego is going to make you think you’re re-capturing the magic of playing minecraft?

You going to build 8-bit sculptures that you couldn’t already do with Lego anyway? You expecting it to not play like Lego? It’s very much like pulling wool over your eyes telling you that it’s not exactly what it is.

Coommmeee ooonnnnnn.

I’ve been playing this awesome game on my iPhone called Triple town. It’s a cool twist on the old “match three” formula and I suggest anyone give it a play.

Here’s a picture of Elijah Wood’s older brother (he really isn’t) as Superman. Apparently he’s in a bank, probably to stop it from getting robbed. But who needs to prevent robbery when a nearby fan wants a picture. huh? huh?

The New Trailer for the next game in the world’s greatest videogame franchise was released, and we were all better people because of it.

Not exactly a way I’d want to die.

And now I should be sleeping….

Efing Media Roundup: Signed, SEALed, Delivered.

I woke up this morning and had a craving to write something the Ef down. (geddit?) The problem? I never had any actual inspiration. So here we are. It’s late, I should be sleeping — TIME FOR SOME NEWS.

Hiedi Klum and Seal divorce. That’s probably pretty sad, because they seemed nice. Hell, I remember being incredibly jealous of Seal the moment I heard they got married. But now that it’s over, I suggest we all look back to all the nice memories, in a medley as performed by youtube.

Since we’re on the topic of Divorce, Let’s Segue to reuniting.

 Justin Bieber might make dashing career move into Maturity in a weird way? Even if this is the strangest rumor I’ve heard about him so far, I’m pretty sure I’d want it to happen.

And here’s this little bit of news that’s completely debatable.

Before I end this post. I remember a time when this way completely and utterly fun. It was my Job to write Ef. and it was doing well. We were getting the traffic that it needed in order to go places. I was the most trustable thing out of anything I’ve done in my career so far. So who knows if it will show it’s head again, or still be a thing of the past. I don’t know what the future is going to hold. But only time will tell.

[Edit: last night I didn't really have anything for 2Live Crew reuniting. In fact it probably writes itself. Something about the music that they represented seems a hell of a lot creepier when they get older. yknow....

Same goes for Jersey Shore for that matter. It doesn't really matter how smart they claim to be, How they're represented on television isn't going to do them any favors in the long run. Even if you're a scientist, if you going to be a drunken mess of an ape on television, you're never going to be taken seriously. ]

I am inherently…

…an idiot. I know this because I live with myself on a regular basis.

Now before you go on saying “Michael, stop it. You’re not an idiot.” Then you must not know me very well. Because I am. I do stupid things on a regular basis. If only because I don’t know what I’m doing.

I really, never have any idea what I’m doing… ever.

Well that’s probably a half-true. I have life goals, ambitions, wants… needs. Sometimes it’ll happen at the expense of loved ones. They’ll get hurt, mad, whatever the outcome in which it will be terrible is. And I will sit there and wonder why. Honestly, where does ones hostility come from? I’d really like to know, because I’ll never understand it.

I get my gut feelings and act on them (Because they haven’t failed me yet. really, I have an impressive track record of gut feelings/premonitions/psychic hobo jobo.) and I’m never truly aware of what will happen. Lately it’s always been bad. For some reason instead of playing it cool, like I should have been doing in the first place, I felt I needed to act on it! And in the end, I made things go off the deep-end.

I’m an idiot.

It’s actually because I stopped knowing what’s going on. Things were fine until something weird happened, then I slipped and fell on the Panic button. And when I panic, that’s never a good sign, it usually involves the people around me watch as I crash and burn… because really? What are they going to do. Never mind if it’s very important to me. Because what’s expected of me is to do something that I really can’t do. really. can’t. do. REALLY.

Need I say it again.

Honestly, I have to rely on people seeing me for what I am and knowing that I’m trying my best. Because honestly, this is really starting to take it’s toll on me daily. No matter how much I try to ignore it.

Maybe this is what people will want out of me from now on.

Yeah I said it, and I can’t really take it back. If I feel like I’ve been walked all over and emotionally manipulated. Then who am I to judge? I’ve tried that, It back fires because I NEVER judge.

Back to the drawing board, keep my mouth shut, and wait a little bit longer. if I’m lucky.

because everything else, just doesn’t feel right. not right now.

Spiders, Man

It’s become a little more frequent lately. Spiders. Dreams of them. Something must have triggered, due to the horde I found myself fighting off with a cane. (I was cleaning my closet, there they were.) Even before then, my dreams have been invaded by eight-legged freaks of many shapes and sizes.

I say ‘dreams’, because it’s not really nightmarish. I suppose it would be if I were afraid of them. Which I kind of am, but there’s a bigger aura of indifference. As if we have an understanding that we can exist, just not get in each others way. (Again, this is about the closet. I felt threatened. They had to go! It was an invasion of privacy!) That’s not to say that They haven’t been scrazy. The much larger spiders are always going to freak the fuck out of someone. But I’ll be damned if I didn’t say it was fascinating.

Last night, while doing a routine segment with Will from Tested, We found something. It was colorful, decently sized, ugly as hell. A spider crawled it’s way into the kitchen doing whatever it felt like doing. We stopped ourselves, watched, decided we had to kill it. I armed myself with a broom, and while not liking the idea of getting closer to the creature I gripped it tightly and prepared to jab.

It jumped and out of it’s ass came a ladder of cob-web. It skittered it’s way up, into the ceiling, and away from us for good. There was no moment of freaking out, not finding myself suddenly awake. just puzzled at the bemusement of a ladder.

Spiders, Man…

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It seems I haven’t had much to say for a while. It’s been fun you know, some time last year I was going to commit myself to blogging everyday for as long as I could. It was a personal goal. Something I didn’t think I was ever going to accomplish.. It’s been bumpy but I managed.

I’ve written enough in this past year to feel content with my ability. I like the way I write. I am unique as long as I care to think that way.

I sit here going back and forth between sentences and paragraphs, editing, adding, and deleting. what’s okay to say? What isn’t? you know, I think I should just shut up and go to sleep. maybe I’ll delete this when I wake up tomorrow.

[EDIT: OR JUST EDIT IT RIGHT NOW]

Intense Phenomenon #bookillneverwrite

It was around 11 o’clock Thursday September 22, 2011. I decided I wasn’t ready to go to sleep yet. I needed to get myself tired so I can feel like I’m actually getting some sleep for myself. So essentially I was asking my friends to stay up with me and entertain the thought of conversation. We talked about our fears and our futures. The kind of conversations we used to have in our youth fueled by our love for creativity.

Ideas, Projects, things we used to do. It was wonderful to have that. I miss that. I appriciate the friendship of intellectualism rather than the Dudebro Douche-osity of the modern man. Locked away in our creative storm. was something we’ve all been a part of since high school. A sad, lackluster experience of a group project passionately known as ‘Intense Phenomenon’.

Update.

UGH

Alyssa Bereznak is the worst (at blogging)

I’m a little late to the party as usual, because I’m sure it’s already been talked to death on the internet. But yesterday, “Gizmodo Intern” Alyssa Bereznak complained about her love life. More so that she singled him out for being really good at a nerdy Hobby (The hobby in subject is Magic: The Gathering). It struck me as a little odd, after all this was an article being posted on Gizmodo WHICH IS A TECH BLOG.

There’s a demographic that reads the site that is already beyond nerd-dom, chances are there’s a good majority of readers on that site which play/have played Magic: The Gathering. Hell I’ve Played that game! Fuck, I still do! That is a SOLID card game! It’s a part of my childhood! But let’s think about this for a bit.

The thing you eventually do with a hobby, if your really into it, is make it something MORE. Jon Finkel knows this, He’s got a passion for a competitive game that is no different than Chess, or Poker. Alyssa Made the mistake of assuming the worst about him, because He’s a world champ.

I don’t want to attack her here, because maybe she didn’t mean anything by it. She’s since edited Finkel’s identity out of her original post. Which is great, because the damage is already done and the internet doesn’t forget these things. The point is she wrote what sounds like “distaste for nerds” on a blog for nerdy things. there has to be to a connection there in your mind that makes you think “maybe I shouldn’t write my follies on a dating website.” “How does my experience, relate to the iPad 3?” You see where this is going? It’s an act of personal life. You want to write about how you’re bad at dating? There’s a site for that.

This is one of the things where I start having a distaste for blog sites. I hate using the term but it does feel like outright trolling for attention. You can begin to imagine how much hits that post got from flocks of people wanting to post a hateful comment towards the offender. Maybe I just hate seeing it on websites that share some of my interest.

It’s like how I can’t stand Kotaku. Gamers as a collective are always trying to fight the stereotype that was created for us. Being sad perverted losers who don’t accomplish anything with our lives but level up to 99 and save the princess. As many people as there is so say “You know, a lot of us aren’t like that.” There’s always Kotaku to bring it down 20 notches and start system wars, or write about things that could be down right pornography, or even exploit something just because the word video game was used once in a totally unrelated way.

It’s that kind of writing that bastardizes the very core of what we are. If you use a popular website to single someone out, because you can’t look past what makes them unique, then that gives everything about you a bad name. You alienate a good chunk of us, and then all of a sudden your Ok cupid profile looks less appealing.

And hey, if you’re going to write about this stuff, AT LEAST know the people that you’re talking to.

to be delighted

Resident Evil
Silent Hill
Fatal Frame
Clock Tower
Eternal Darkness
Dead Space
Alone in the Dark
IllBleed
Blue Stinger
House of the Dead
Parasite Eve
Dino Crisis
Siren
Luigi’s Mansion
F.E.A.R.
Amnesia: The Dark Descent
Left 4 Dead
Condemned
Deadly Premonition
D
Run like Hell
The Thing
Dead Rising
Alan Wake

Significance and Overstanding

What a time it’s been huh? this blog has basically been un-touched for a significant amount of it. What have I been up to lately? am I done writing my book? I’m not saying no, but I’ve basically run out of chapters that I wanted to slap onto the bloggy blog. Those videos? it’s been a bad idea. I can’t do it. I don’t know what I’m doing, and it feels to weird anyway.

So that was scrapped.

As far as other things go, the writing gig over at Geek-Badge is pretty fun. Did I mention that it’s something I get to check off of my bucket list? writing about games is super cool when you’re a geek that’s been playing them for a good amount of life.

There’s also that acting thing, that still happens to be around in the weirdest ways. But nothing big to actually talk about until the ball is rolling. And, if anything animation school is happening closer every day.

It’s a small update, I know, I’m sorry. but things of other nature are just happening. Can’t get excited over lots just yet, but I’ve been pretty tired for a while. Stressed out too.

It’s ok guys. Life is cool.